"Maybe I'm pregnant!"

Lately (being the past 3 days), I have been feeling very fatigued and having to take naps that usually last about 4 hours per nap. On top of that, 2 days ago AND last night I felt very nauseous and it came on very suddenly! I got up from the computer and ran to the master bedroom bathroom and hunched over the sink..I was positive that when I opened my mouth, puke would come out! But nothing happened. And last night, I did the same thing and had to eventually sleep with a bucket by the bed. I walked away from the bathroom both times confused and thinking "What the fuck was that all about??" Ahh! Maybe I'm pregnant!!!

It's so funny how every little thing can turn into "Maybe I'm pregnant!" when you're trying to have a baby. I'm peeing more often..."Maybe I'm pregnant!"...I'm tired all the time.."Maybe I'm pregnant!"...I sneezed twice today..."Maybe I'm pregnant!"

Oyy.

It's so frustrating!! Too bad us women don't have an alarm go off or something that would sound off the very second that we got pregnant. Wouldn't THAT be nice?!!! :-P Unfortunately, that's not the case. So I'm resorting to the "maybe I'm pregnant" sentence a few times a day.

Anthony is so funny: one minute, he wants 4 kids. The next minute, he's not "ready" to have kids. His meaning of "ready" is 100% about money. He's not "money ready". Well guess what, Bucko? We aren't ever gonna be "money ready" for a kid! People don't have kids when they have $50,000 saved up in the bank..they jump in with both feet and prepare for the waves of the ocean! Hell, that's the fun part! Well...most of the time, anyways. Every couple fights about money and/or always concerned about money. That's life. No matter how much you make, it will always be the same tune: "Can we afford this? Can afford that? How are we going to afford that!??" Sometimes you gotta rob Peter to pay Paul, or just budget things out for the month, or use coupons from the Sunday paper to save yourself $30 on that weeks grocery bill. My point is, things have a funny way of always working out. Even in our darkest hour, shit will work out!! The problem with us is that I know this. Anthony, on the other hand, doesn't...despite the years being together as proof that we're okay.

Anyways, so I totally have baby on the brain. We haven't "tried" in about a week and it feels weird to not be trying everyday. I've just been soooo stressed out and busy with working that I haven't had a minute for myself. But that's all gonna change and soon.

I drove by the gym that is about 1/4 of a mile from us (its brand new) and took a peek inside. It's cute! It's smaller but it's 24/7 and only $25 a month with no contracts to sign. You sign up, pay the $25, and they give you a card. The card opens up the door so only members can get inside. Next month when I get paid, Anthony and I are both going to join. I love Anthony the way he is, but for health reasons, he needs to get in shape. And frankly, SO DO I!!! I'd love to lose 30 pds at least. The first 20 will melt off in a few months (I've learned that about myself), it's after that point that my weight gets stuck. Ehh, we'll see what happens. Anyways, I wanna start working out for a few reasons: for some good old fashioned "Me" time, to get into shape, to lose weight before getting pregnant, and just to look & feel good! :)

Oh, and just for an update: I did take a prego test today and it said negative. :( So either I'm not pregers yet, or it's too early to show up on a test. Yesterday was our 1 month anniversary by the way!!! :-D I tried to "get some" (lol) but Anthony totally wasn't in the mood. He was in that laying on the couch mood.
Dammit! lol :-P

Maybe I can get him to have a little fun later on. ;-) Hopefully my tummy won't feel so bad and I won't be burping up puke every 5 minutes (attractive, I know. lol)

xoxo,
J.