"If at first you don't succeed, try again!"

Okay, so I still don't know if I'm preggers or not, but it doesn't matter at this point because we're still trying!

Yesterday, Anthony came home and I was heading into the shower and he joined me...and well, you can guess what that lead to. hehe ;-)

Minus the whole trying-to-get-pregnant thing, it's really nice to be able to make love without having to take precautions (forms of birth control). It's so much more passionate and full of so much love and intensity!! I can get used to this! :-D

Yesterday and today, my tummy hasn't been feeling...stable. Yes, stable. It's the only word I can use to describe it. I'm not feeling 100% right in my stomach..I have this constant feeling that kinda feels the same way of being nervous. Butterflies, but mixed with nausea. lol Not sure what the heck that is about.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm over thinking/over anyalzing every little thing going on with my body because we're trying to get pregnant (and I very well could be doing that!) but it still wouldn't explain the tiredness (I can't help that!) and the few episodes of extreme nausea this month. I only throw up when I'm drunk. Even if I have the flu, I don't puke. I'm not much of a puker or one for nausea..I have a pretty strong stomach when it comes to those things. So that *really* caught me off guard.

Off the subject of baby-making, we have 4 houses to look at on Saturday and I'm SUPER EXCITED about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D The one house that I blogged about (the picture perfect house) was scheduled for us to see tomorrow (Thurs) but we decided to move that to Saturday with the other 3 houses we wanna look at to save on gas. I can't seem to get that 1 house out of my mind..I'm a sucker for pools (LOVE to swim!!!!!!!!!) and it has a jacuzzi which is a HUGE bonus for Anthony & I (we love hot tubs!) so that's all I'm thinking about lately: getting a house with a huge pool and having people come over all the time and having cookouts and such.

When I was little, my Aunt Gayle had a pool in her yard. She was the only family member that had a pool, so there were always parties and people over there and I loved that! In fact, both me and my sister both always wanted a house with a pool for that very reason. I would love to host parties every weekend, and have random friends and family come over to use the pool or hot tub, and to sleep over (love when people sleep over!) Plus, we both want a dog or two, and what dog wouldn't love to swim? ;-)

I can tell that with each passing day, I'm getting more and more irritated with apartment living. Cars driving by all the time, my neighbors below going in and out of their front door (we live in condo-style apartments, we each have our own front doors), and I hate being out on the small balcony because the central air is right there and when it kicks on, it's SO LOUD and it scares me. The first 2 years of being here, I loved it but I think that's because we can from a little shitty hole of an apartment and this was a MAJOR step up for us. Our apartments are "Luxury Apartments"..we have vaulted ceilings, 2 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms, attached garage..they're nice! But after 3 yrs, they get old. We can't paint any of the walls, I can't have a dog, we don't have a yard, and there's no privacy whatsoever. It's annoying now! It's more annoying to me, than Anthony, because I work from home. He was wondering why I've been pushing to look at houses earlier than what we planned. We were going to start lookin January (for a few reasons) but I just couldn't wait. Within weeks of getting married, the house hunt was on. lol

I guess a major part of wanting a house is also because I want to be settled before we bring a baby into our lives. I want those memories to be created in that house. We're looking for a house that (1) We can live in for the rest of our lives if we wanted to..and (2) that has enough bedrooms for the 2 kids we want. Actually, we may want 3 kids, but we'll deal with 2 first and then talk. lol We both want 3 kids but until you have one or two, you'll never know how much work that is. I'm pretty sure we'll have 3 though..we both come from large families and both want a large family of our own. :)

Okay, it's back to work I go! So until the next time, ciao!

XOXO,
J.

4 hour nap

Once again, I found myself purely EXHAUSTED by 2pm today. I woke up around 9:30am and had a great night of sleep..about 7 hours. But by 2pm, I was doing deep yawns and my eyes were watering from being sooo tired and I just had to sleep! I was falling asleep while peeing..it was that bad.

Anthony (husband) came home around 3pm and I was laying in bed just about to fall asleep. I remember him going to the bathroom in our masterbath but I don't remember him coming out. I was just out cold.

I finally woke up at 7pm and immediatley started making dinner for my very hungry (and very patient!!!) husband.

Once again, I find myself thinking 'what the fuck?'. This is about the 5th time this month that I've taken a 4 hour nap from being so damn tired. I read online that this one girl didn't get a positive pregnancy test until her 8th week because her hormone level wasn't that high. Could that be it?? Arghh! I just wanna know either way if I'm pregnant or not!! I JUST WANNA KNOW!!!! I can deal with a negative result if I know 100% that is truly a negative result. This is driving me nuts.

In other news, we found another house that we wanna look at. This house is the most PERFECT looking house I've ever seen from the road. It's picture perfect, has 3 bedrooms, 1 bath, and a large yard with a big pool and a jacuzzi on the patio. We've only seen a couple pics of the inside and from what we can see, it looks good!! So we're going on Thursday to look at it. Our rent is $950 a month (not including any utilities), so we would like our mortgage to be around $1,100-$1,200 a month to stay comfortable. This house we're looking at would be around $1300-$1400 a month and that's only if we get it for $10k under the asking price. Argh. I guess we'll take it one step at a time and see if it's do-able.

Alright, well, I'm gonna go. The hubby & I are watching "Knocked Up" (funny movie! lol)

XOXO,
J.

Tired & Cramps

Today I've been tired (sluggish) and I've had cramps off and on again. I think I'm going to go to the doctor (OB/GYN) and see what's going on. I'm scared that I'm having pregnancy symptoms but that the tests are coming back as negative. But since we just got married, I'm not under my husbands insurance yet. We have to make a phone call and then fill out papers and such. Blah. I swear, the wedding will never be fully over: Thank You notes, name change, insurance, changing bank accounts...lawdy!!! Such a hassle. lol So when I can get the insurance taken care of, I'll go see a doc.

As I'm typing this, I'm having very small period-like cramps on my left side again. It's been on and off for a couple of days now. Hope nothing is wrong with me!! Okay, I refuse to freak out anymore than I need to! lol

We went house hunting today and it was really cool to think of where to put a nursey. :) Not sure if that will be anytime soon (hopefully it will be!!) but it was still nice to incorporate that thought into our lives. I asked my husband "On a scale of 1 to 10, how bad do you want a baby?" and his reply was "Hmm...45!" lol He's so cute. Oh, by the way, we didn't like the house..just in case you were wondering.

XOXO,
J.